My heart wants what it wants and what it wants is to be a stay-at-home mom. For several reasons at this time this is not possible. So I pray. I ask GOD to either make an obvious path towards this goal or change my heart against it.
I enjoy my job. I don’t mind what I do. But my heart wants what it wants and I want to be at home. Understand it’s not because I want to sleep all day and eat chocolate when no one is home to watch me. I enjoy taking care of my family. I like doing special things for them. Waking up at 5:00am and cooking for 175-200 kids and then cleaning up all that mess is exhausting and I have very little left for my family afterwards.
My heart wants what it wants and it wants to be at home.